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|Friday, May 11th, 2007|
I'll put this under a cut because it's going to be long. I've had the benefit of an LJ since I started losing weight 2 years ago, so I went back and tried to analyze exactly why I gained weight back and lost slower than I've wanted to. I reread all my posts from last summer when I did a similar Summer Challenge and came up with 20 mistakes and problems. They are under the cut. ( Read more...Collapse )
Also, I've always just used my LJ for communities and private posts. I want to start making friends-only posts. I want to be held accountable, and would like to have a few people reading. I'll try to post every day and make it interesting, so if you'd like to be added, please just comment. I need more friends! This is the summer when hopefully I come very close (within 5-10lbs) of my final goal, so it's going to be an intense end to the two years I've been doing this.
|Sunday, February 4th, 2007|
well I just joined and even though this is not a very active community, I like the concept.
I kind of binged over christmas. Not in a huge
way, but I am both wheat and dairy intolerant and I have had a lot of that. I have probably gained about 15 pounds over the last three months, and I want to lose that, and a fair bit more!
I am 5'5 (165cm) and I weigh 218 pounds (99kg). I think I would like to weigh around 160 pounds (70kg). That is a loss of close to 60 pounds (30kg). But I will reassess this as I lose weight. I might be happy at a higher weight.
I am starting a detox tomorrow, so that seems like the perfect start to the 100 days. My main aims are more energy and just to feel better. When I eat foods that aren't good for me I don't feel good (makes perfect sense, doesn't it).
I like the idea of rewards and such, and I will have to think about enjoyable and meaningful ones. What sort of things have other people done? Anyway, thanks for reading, and good luck with where ever you are up to in your 100 days.
|Sunday, January 21st, 2007|
hey...i'm new to this community. i'm a 26 year old queer girl living in philly. i'm a social worker and live with my gf and our two dogs.
i've been looking for supportive communities to deal with some weight/eating issues that i've had my whole life and am now trying to tackle.
i'm basically looking for other people who can understand what i'm going through. i'm an emotional eater and slowly learning exactly what that means.
i'm 5'6" and currently weigh 285lbs. i wear a size 22...sometimes a 24. a 2x, sometimes a 3x. i know numbers aren't important, but honestly, they are to me.
i should be shocked by my weight. i've gained about 60lbs in the past year and a half. but for some reason, i'm just complacent and not doing anything.
i have a gym membership. i never go.
i need help.
you know when obese people gain so much weight and they still think of themselves as smaller? not able to judge where their body begins and where it ends? run into things because it doesn't occur to them that they're actually that large? well...i've gotten to that point.
last month i met with a psychiatrist in order to try to get medication for anxiety. he spent 45 minutes talking about my weight, which i hadn't brought up. he said that if i didn't take control of my life and my eating that i would need gastric bypass surgery soon. he was not a gentle man and his approach to the discussion was very straight-foward and difficult for me. i've been thinking about that ever since i saw him.
at this point in my life...i cannot comfortably cross my legs. i am starting to wheeze (sp) when i am falling asleep. i cannot ride my bike for more than four blocks without becoming out of breath. i am conscience of my body and feel horribly ugly. i cannot fit myself into the multiple sexual positions i used to be comfortable in. i am envious of those that look "normal". my lower back hurts, so much i cannot sit at times. my shoes are wearing thin much quicker. i have a rash under my right arm. i have a sore on my stomach from the weight of my fat. i cannot comfortably sit in chairs with arm rests. i have to wear "fat lady" clothes which are honestly, quite gross. my anxiety has increased.
i know what it takes to lose weight. i once lost 50 lbs and was feeling really great about myself. i know it involves eating less and exercising more. i cannot get myself to do this. i will not have gastric bypass surgery, that is a ridiculous option to me. this is about will power, this is about self-control, this is about loving myself.
this all makes me cry.
honestly, my weight will kill me. i will develop diabetes, heart problems and other related medical problems. i will become depressed and anxious and not participate in life.
i'm already afraid to meet new people. and a huge amount of that has to do with my weight, which is nearly impossible for me to explain.
and the solution..it seems so simple doesn't it? why can't i do it? i have a gym membership, a girlfriend that adores me and supports me unconditionally, amazing friends, a good family...why can't i do this?
i'm scared. i'm scared i can't get my life together and take care of myself. i'm scared i will alientate myself from life.
sometimes just saying these things and having them out there as a reminder and having people know what i'm dealing with helps.
so that was a HUGE ramble with probably way too much info, but i just need to put it out there.
other than "weight issues"...i'm a feminist, into riot grrl music, identify as queer, am a huge trans ally, love the ocean, watching movies, going to bad dive bars...all that kinda stuff.
thanks for anyone that read the whole entry! (haha).
|Monday, October 30th, 2006|
I thought this might be an appropriate community for me. I'm starting Meridia November 1, for a 3 month course. That's 92 days, so very close to the 100. I told myself that if my Dr. agreed that a medical aid might be the thing to help me, I would kick my own butt for that whole length of time to get the most of it. This place may help me do that. I'll be doing between a 1000 to 1200 calorie diet, depending on appetite. In a lot of ways, that shouldn't be too hard, I don't eat much more than that now, so more of my focus will be on limiting what of those amounts is carbs. I'm a carb addict. I can admit that. Then there's cutting WAY down on my sugar. THAT one is going to be even harder than carbs, I think.
I have some difficulty on the exercise stage too, with a very bad back that strictly limits what I can do. But, that's part of this whole approach. To start getting my weight down to start helping my back as well.
So, here I am, about 250, at 5'10". Fixed goal, back down to 180 in whatever time it takes to do so healthily. Absolute goals: To feel less like a tired tub of lard, and more like a functioning human. Lofty, dreamy goal: Back to the 150-160 range I was when I was 18, but I know that may not be realistic 10 years later. I felt good at 180, I could buy clothes in regular stores, so that's my goal. Plus, we are going to Scotland to renew our vows in 2012 (10th anniversary), so I need to reach and maintain a top weight of 180 so I can wear my wedding dress again. :) Current Mood: hopeful
|Saturday, October 28th, 2006|
I was fairy good today.
teaspoon of hummus
Snack that I shouldn't have had:
Cup of tea
Tiniest amount of lemon sorbet (like 20cals a most)<-- ok I admit this was sugar
We went to a thai ALL YOU CAN EAT which really spells death to any diet. But I think I did ok, I made sure I had lots of bean sprouts, stayed away from the noodles and I didn't overdo it.
|Friday, October 27th, 2006|
My aim is to have 100 days (excluding christmas day) wheat and sugar free. I've found myself addicted to these two substances and I feel so much happier when I'm not consuming them. So this means no bread, or chocolate (the respective crowning glories of wheat and sugar)...but I'll have to learn to manage.
|Saturday, October 21st, 2006|
Weighed in this morning. A little disappointed I maintained. I guess that it is better than a gain.
My exercise goal was not met this past week. I am putting it out there for myself again. I want to walk for minimum 20 minutes at least twice this week. Weather can not be my excuse. There are many large malls in Edmonton so I can always go to one of them if the weather sucks.
Hears hoping for a good week.
|Saturday, October 14th, 2006|
Weight in this morning. I lost 6.6lbs!!! I guess that is what happens when you decided to get with the program. I am so happy.
I really didn't get very much if any exercise in. I need to get out and walk at least twice this week. If the weather is crappy go to the mall and walk with Jillian. I think it is best to walk on the upper level to avoid the temptation of the food court.
So 6.6lbs is pretty impressive.
|Monday, October 9th, 2006|
Starting over. Day 3
Okay, I have decided that I am going to start over with the 100 healthy days. Now that I am back on track with Weight Watchers after hitting an all time self-esteem low. I figured this weekend was as good a time as any to start. I had two Thanksgiving dinners and a wedding to attend. So I figured that I could either be in control or end up gaining even more weight and being more depressed over my current situation. So I decided that I would take control. 100 days will put me into the new year.
I decided to make my start date. October 7, 2006 so I guess this is day 3. Here are the stats.
Starting weight: 241.6 (yuck, I hate that number)
10% goal: 24 pounds = 218.6
Ultimate goal: 137
Yikes! 105 pounds that is a very daunting number. Baby step right. Must take baby steps.
I plan to post every Saturday after weigh in. I am going to start going for walks. I should have been doing this for a long time now. Jillian loves walks. I really should get as many in before the snow flies. Look in to deep water aquasize. I loved it when I went before, I'm sure that Mike can handle Jillian for an hour or two. Current Mood: optimistic
|Wednesday, September 20th, 2006|
New 100 Days Starts Tomorrow!
I fell off the wagon on the last 100 days. Somewhere in between a move halfway across the world, adjusting to an entirely alien culture, and then doing the same thing 90 days later to return home.
I stopped keeping track, but here are my total stats for the first 100 days.
Starting Weight 215
Current Weigh 201
So, I've lost and kept off about 15 pounds..which is decent, but not as good as I'd like.
Plus in the 3 weeks I've been home, I've gained about five pounds back (I was about 195 when I came home)
Today is my 24th birthday. I'm in a good place mentally. I'm in my last term of school...I'll graduate in November. I have some great job prospects. I'm thinking about going to graduate school, which is exciting because two years ago when I started university (for the second go-round) I didn't seriously believe that I'd make it through. I've even made peace with my weight...I'm not letting being overweight stop me from doing the things I love. I'm golfing and shopping and going out (whenever friends are around) and going to the theater as much as possible. So, I was thinking that I really deserve to treat my body better over the next year. I'm not getting any younger...and I want to be able to enjoy life to its fullest.
So, tomorrow, on my first official day of 24-ness...I'm beginning a new 100 day challenge.
1. to establish an exercise habit (5 x a week cardio; 3 x week strength training)
2. to eat more healthy foods; I'd like to increase the amount of fruits/vegetables I eat until I'm on a 50% raw diet
3. Lose 25 pounds (approx. 2/week throughout the challenge)
4. Wear a size 12 pants in the first time since high-school
5. Build my endurance to the point where I can jog 3 miles without walking, and run a mile in under 10 minutes
I'd love it if anyone wanted to join me. I could use the motivation that comes from an active group.
I'll be tracking my progress here (hopefully daily) and at 100plusWL (every few days/weekly).
Xposted 100healthydays and 100plusWL
|Friday, August 25th, 2006|
Feeling quite a bit better today. My cough has settled down some, my throat isn't so sore. I'm still having some trouble breathing evenly but not as much. I ate okay (but not perfectly), and I did 5 minutes on the stepper (damn, but that thing is tough). I'm aiming to do 3 sets of 5 minutes on it daily over the next wee while, until my thighs get stronger. :S I thought my legs were pretty strong; guess I was mistaken! Hopefully this will really help my hips and knees. :)
Drank plenty of water - that's one thing being ill has not interfered with! Current Mood: tired
|Thursday, August 24th, 2006|
I was expecting to gain or at least stay the same when I went to WW last night, but I lost .6kg. I haven't been paying nearly enough attention to what I've eaten in the last week and a half. First those damn birthdays, then being sick (I have a nasty cold, I feel horrible and lethargic). Being sick is probably the only reason I did lose weight! =/
This week, I want to lose 1kg. *determined* And I want to get more exercise - though I don't know if I can do much more than I have been until I'm not sick anymore. Current Mood: sick
|Monday, August 21st, 2006|
Been lurking for a bit, but my first post.
It's day one.
I'm starting at 270. Blah.
I walked a half a mile this morning before school, a quarter of a mile across campus, and I still need to take my dog for her mile walk. And this will have been a lazy day. *shrugs*
I've also started back on my low refined sugar/low white flour somewhat adjusted low carb diet that doc laurie put me on when I was having problems with my blood sugars. Not only did I loose weight while I was on that diet a while ago, I didn't get sick as often, my energy was stable, as were my moodswings. Once I starting eating the sugars and the floury things I started getting sick more often. So here I am, eggs and some fruit for breakfast, salad for lunch.
Where is my willpower? I want nothing more right now than a piece of cheesecake... Not that it will help the fact that I barely fit into my desk in class.
*is discouraged* Current Mood: discouraged
|Saturday, August 19th, 2006|
Can this work as 100 days?
I want to work on decreasing my anxiety, being less negative/depressed, get rid of my stomach issues, and generally get along better with people (being assertive, making friends, etc). Would this work in the 100 days set-up? If so, any suggestions for measuring these things and working on them?
Days 27 thru 29
These last few days have been hectic, and I'm exhausted. I think I've stuck to my points, though I haven't had time to note them down. Even so, I won't be surprised if I don't lose this week - I'm sure stress stops me losing.
I must remember today to thank my boyfriend for being so supportive. I know he's not eating healthily when we have meals apart, but he's so good about not talking about the unhealthy food.
One of my skirts doesn't fit anymore. Most of my skirts will sit anywhere I put them on my hips, waist, whatever, but this one pair... very uncomfortable. I suppose they might sit comfortably again once I've lost some more weight, so I'll keep them around. I do want to get rid of my "fat clothes" once I'm small enough, though. I don't want to grow back into them. I want to be wearing size 14 (NZ sizing, no idea how it compares), which I think is as small as I could fit with my frame, and if they get tight I'll know I have to watch my weight.
Willpower victory (kinda): There's a box of cookies and chocolate at work. I haven't gone near it in a month. I haven't actually been tempted to, which is why it's only "kinda" a willpower victory. ;) Still very cool, though. Current Mood: good but tired
|Thursday, August 17th, 2006|
I'm starting over, personally.
Yeah, also fell of the wagon.
I'm going to try to commit to another 100; I can't post daily, but I'm going to try it again. (I'm buying a calendar today and love counting things, what can I say?)
I feel bad for neglecting my goals, and contributing to this comm's relative slow-movingness.
So! I'm back in action, and starting at 179.5! (Yeah, I so broke that plateau I was on. BD )
Personally, I'm aiming for exercising at least three days a week... I've been a lot busier lately, so maybe I'll be able to up it when my time increases. And also, I'm aiming to eat at least 50 to 75% raw each week, because well... hey, it's raw food! What's NOT good about it? (Unless it's meat... but that's another story. ;) And nothing I'm eating, lol.) Current Mood: cheerful
|Wednesday, August 16th, 2006|
My 100 day goal was to lose 25 pounds.
In Feb I weighed 216.
At beginning of 18 days I weighed 183
Now I weigh 160. (Since Feb I've lost 56 pounds)
I have so far lost 23 pounds since beginning 100 days, and have 2 more to go! I seem to be plateauing despite "being good"
I've been doing great with eating and been exercising like a madwoman. I can't seem to get into the elusive "150's"
My BMI has gone from 42 to 31.
Day 84 recap: total calories 1950, total fat 56 grams, total fiber 20 grams. Well, it was better than yesterday.
|Sunday, August 13th, 2006|
An excerpt from my LJ
I'm back....and I'm starting over. Monday will begin Day 1 again. I lost my way for a while...the kicker was when 2 of my dogs died last week, the same day of different causes, and I just fell down completely eating-wise...I ate anything and everything I wanted all the time, and not only did it not make the pain go away, it made me feel that much crappier physically. When we walked 2-3 miles to scatter their ashes, I nearly sweated my butt off, and I then had 2 days of muscle pain because my body was so out of shape. Ow is an understatement!
It's been an incredible 80-something days of a journey, and although I did not spend all 80 being good to my body, I learned a lot about myself, about proper self-care. I can be kind now. I forgive myself for losing sight of the big picture. I forgive myself for using an old crutch to get through stressful times. But I also give myself permission to break the pattern, forge a new path. Day 1. Tomorrow. Not relishing that weigh-in! But...if I don't do it, it won't be real to me. And it has to be real, because the health-effects of my current lifestyle are very real, too.
I miss my shrinking body...I miss my strong muscles, and clearheadedness that comes from eating well. I forgot how wonderful and important I am, how important it is to take care of myself, and how much making positive choices can create positive outcomes. I may forget again, but I am not coming back to this point. I am mistress of my destiny here, and what I say goes (well, at least what I do goes!)
|Monday, August 14th, 2006|
I didn't know this one!
Myth 8: Using hand, wrist or ankle weights increases exercise benefits
It's not uncommon to see walkers and joggers carrying hand weights or wearing Velcro weight straps around their ankles or wrists.
If it's crossed your mind that these 'fit bods' are probably getting more benefit from their sessions than you are, don't worry — they're not!
Wrist, hand or ankle weights aren't heavy enough to provide any strength training benefits. In fact, they decrease your activity gains by slowing you down and messing with your natural walking rhythm which raises your risk of injuries. So it's probably best to give them a miss. http://www.weightwatchers.com.au/util/art/index_art.aspx?art_id=30861&tabnum=1&sc=113&subnav=Fitness+Centre Current Mood: surprised